I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Blind - Life House
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
James 1
5 If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.
9 Believers who are[b] poor have something to boast about, for God has honored them. 10 And those who are rich should boast that God has humbled them. They will fade away like a little flower in the field. 11 The hot sun rises and the grass withers; the little flower droops and falls, and its beauty fades away. In the same way, the rich will fade away with all of their achievements.
12 God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. 13 And remember, when you are being tempted, do not say, “God is tempting me.” God is never tempted to do wrong,[c] and he never tempts anyone else. 14 Temptation comes from our own desires, which entice us and drag us away. 15 These desires give birth to sinful actions. And when sin is allowed to grow, it gives birth to death.
16 So don’t be misled, my dear brothers and sisters. 17 Whatever is good and perfect comes down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens.[d] He never changes or casts a shifting shadow.[e] 18 He chose to give birth to us by giving us his true word. And we, out of all creation, became his prized possession.[f]
Listening and Doing
19 Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. 20 Human anger[g] does not produce the righteousness[h] God desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.22 But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves. 23 For if you listen to the word and don’t obey, it is like glancing at your face in a mirror. 24 You see yourself, walk away, and forget what you look like. 25 But if you look carefully into the perfect law that sets you free, and if you do what it says and don’t forget what you heard, then God will bless you for doing it.
26 If you claim to be religious but don’t control your tongue, you are fooling yourself, and your religion is worthless. 27 Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.
Your will be done in my life...
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Bring it on!!!
hahaha....well....one way to start the new year is to get sick.... -.-'' awesome right? yes...i'm sneezing my head off and well ya....drinking lots of fluid to keep myself intact. haha...well...tat makes it something to remember lol.
anyhow, as i sat through watchnight in church yesterday and as the three tenors sang on stage, i cud'nt help but start looking back at each and every event which i had gone through till the very last day of 2008. being an emo, compationate person, who wud cry at a stranger's funeral, cry for a happy ending, sad ending, cry for other's problem and etc... yes....u get the gist of it la. yea....i started reflecting on all the things which i've done and said throughout the year, bad and good. but true....i no matter what nothing beats the attitude of being thankful, though nothing seems to be going your way and though you may be sitting at a pit being a twit.
as i sat there thinking and thanking, i realize that being thankful is so much more satisfying then complaining and being depressed. it just edifies the soul in many ways unexplainable. hahaha....i'm even thankful for being thankful LOL. how cute :P still, being thankful also shows and brings us to a greater realization of how much He has done for us and is still doing for us, and that whatever short-comings we are facing now are nothing more then just a light breeze of wind that will settle anytime soon.
so many things will happen this year, i can see some of it; yet, the mysteries of how these events will turn out and how i'd face and deal with it, is very much an adventure to be unfold together with Him. it's gonna be great :)
so, bring it on ^^
Friday, December 26, 2008
chasing rainbows
2008 is bout to end soon. 2009 in 5 days time. have i accomplished anything this year? did i chased rainbows? proudly i can say i did fall some and conquered some, and i don't regret any bit of it. still come to think of it, 2008 did pass by real quick, filled with precious memories and lessons.
starting out the year with the challenge of being a leader does not seem much now as i've come to terms with it;
organizing a trip to penang taught me more about organizing and planning and working together and made me learn more to be patient and to continue smiling though it's all tough;
going to singapore with rose, sexy, isaac and lee ching to FGA singapore was a real eye opener, i made some treasured friends and learned how to be sociable;
raub missions trip with a whole bunch of new faces was great, plus the fact of a literally environment friendly environment taught me a great deal to appreciate what we have back home and to work together as a team;
prisc leaving off to UK for 3 months plus really forced me up the plate as a leader and i do thank her for that;
starting my major subjects has never been more then a joy for me, i've gained a new bunch of friends of different races though i had countless problems for the pass 2 years;
P.O.D. camp was a blast as i've made new friends and learnt quite a fair bit from the workshops;
doing the CG notes was also joy as i've learnt a great deal more then normal lessons though it was quite a rush which made the experience a mix of emotions;
sending amanda off wasn't as emo as i expected as tat girl didn't set the emo mood for us to dwell in it, but i miss you a whole deal dear.....;
chubes and serena's engagement was quite sudden and something to look forward to next year;
christmas this year wasn't much of a blast, but still enjoy seeing so many familier faces and receiving so many presents.
the chasing of rainbows would be in the area of relationship. it's so pretty, so colourful, so myterious, but yet, i duno where it comes from and where it ends. in this, so far, patience is what i've learnt and still in the process of mastering it and to trust God in it. i wana do this right in everyway.
overall, this year i learnt a great deal much more then 2007 and most of all i made a great deal more of friends ^^ i'm so happy and i feel thankfull despite the many few scrapes and bruises.
i duno what 2009 will hold for me, i duno whether i'd get attached by then though i pray tat i will LOL. i just pray that God will teach me more and i'd learn with a teachable spirit, i pray that i'd learn to b more independent, pray that 2009 wud b a fruitful year and most of all i pray that God be with all of us as we take on another year filled with adventures and growth.
i pray we wun chase rainbows, but chase the One who made it.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Pains of Waiting
Story so alike mine, story so similar.
Really makes me wonder, makes me ponder.
Will my happy ending be the same?
Or maybe just the other?
Do You write the same story twice?
Or put a twist to the other?
I so want it the same.
It feels so much comforting and better.
But, Your plans, somehow I know, goes for the latter.
Contemplating, wondering....
Dang! This is so confusing!!
I want to be patient, I really do.
But, just having this feelings just would'nt do.
Daddy, take it, stop it!
Do whatever it takes.
Stop it from going all over my head.
No matter what the storyline will be,
No matter how long I may endure.
One thing is for sure,You are all I'm living for.
The pains of growing is all I need to bear.
But the fruits of it deems it fair.
Carry me through this if You may?
My own feet may not take me there.
An offering for You, my life will it be.
Any ending, any style, to Your decree.
Grant me Your will and so let it be.
