Friday, December 26, 2008

chasing rainbows


2008 is bout to end soon. 2009 in 5 days time. have i accomplished anything this year? did i chased rainbows? proudly i can say i did fall some and conquered some, and i don't regret any bit of it. still come to think of it, 2008 did pass by real quick, filled with precious memories and lessons.

starting out the year with the challenge of being a leader does not seem much now as i've come to terms with it;
organizing a trip to penang taught me more about organizing and planning and working together and made me learn more to be patient and to continue smiling though it's all tough;
going to singapore with rose, sexy, isaac and lee ching to FGA singapore was a real eye opener, i made some treasured friends and learned how to be sociable;
raub missions trip with a whole bunch of new faces was great, plus the fact of a literally environment friendly environment taught me a great deal to appreciate what we have back home and to work together as a team;
prisc leaving off to UK for 3 months plus really forced me up the plate as a leader and i do thank her for that;
starting my major subjects has never been more then a joy for me, i've gained a new bunch of friends of different races though i had countless problems for the pass 2 years;
P.O.D. camp was a blast as i've made new friends and learnt quite a fair bit from the workshops;
doing the CG notes was also joy as i've learnt a great deal more then normal lessons though it was quite a rush which made the experience a mix of emotions;
sending amanda off wasn't as emo as i expected as tat girl didn't set the emo mood for us to dwell in it, but i miss you a whole deal dear.....;
chubes and serena's engagement was quite sudden and something to look forward to next year;
christmas this year wasn't much of a blast, but still enjoy seeing so many familier faces and receiving so many presents.
the chasing of rainbows would be in the area of relationship. it's so pretty, so colourful, so myterious, but yet, i duno where it comes from and where it ends. in this, so far, patience is what i've learnt and still in the process of mastering it and to trust God in it. i wana do this right in everyway.

overall, this year i learnt a great deal much more then 2007 and most of all i made a great deal more of friends ^^ i'm so happy and i feel thankfull despite the many few scrapes and bruises.

i duno what 2009 will hold for me, i duno whether i'd get attached by then though i pray tat i will LOL. i just pray that God will teach me more and i'd learn with a teachable spirit, i pray that i'd learn to b more independent, pray that 2009 wud b a fruitful year and most of all i pray that God be with all of us as we take on another year filled with adventures and growth.

i pray we wun chase rainbows, but chase the One who made it.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Pains of Waiting


Story so alike mine, story so similar.
Really makes me wonder, makes me ponder.

Will my happy ending be the same?
Or maybe just the other?
Do You write the same story twice?
Or put a twist to the other?

I so want it the same.
It feels so much comforting and better.
But, Your plans, somehow I know, goes for the latter.

Contemplating, wondering....
Dang! This is so confusing!!
I want to be patient, I really do.
But, just having this feelings just would'nt do.

Daddy, take it, stop it!
Do whatever it takes.
Stop it from going all over my head.

No matter what the storyline will be,
No matter how long I may endure.
One thing is for sure,You are all I'm living for.

The pains of growing is all I need to bear.
But the fruits of it deems it fair.
Carry me through this if You may?
My own feet may not take me there.

An offering for You, my life will it be.
Any ending, any style, to Your decree.
Grant me Your will and so let it be.

random thoughts

just being obedient to God is so much better then just having it my way, as in the long run it pays. it may be really tough and may even get impatient...but looking beyond the worries towards You, i know it's all gonna be worth it. As for now, waiting in obedience seems much more worth it. In everything, may Your will be done, no matter how hard it may be, may it be as You wish, but, dun forget to carry me through it. Yes, it's gonna be worth it :)